Exactly 12 years ago, I first “met” the person who had changed my life forever. She was to be my wife, my best friend, cheerleader, soulmate and ultimately, my “redemption”. For with her passing, she had made me into the infinitely better person I can only before dream as possible. For she had taught me how to REALLY love. To love unconditionally and to find one’s happiness in the service of something greater than one’s self. (I also believe that she continues to offer her faithful “guidance” to our only daughter Samantha and me even today.)
To my dear friends who had followed this blog… our story, I wish to again reiterate our eternal gratitude for your being a part of our journey. We are so thankful for the comfort you had shared with us. It may seem to some that I have been away from “the garden” for sometime now. Trust me when I say that I’m still always there EVERY single day. Only that I have chosen briefly, to suffer in my pain in silence. For Mariel is too beautiful to ever easily be forgotten. And greatly missing her is just something I’m doing my best to try to live with, until our next reunion .
Not long after that fateful day in March I had told Mariel that, “you were once only a bleep on the screen, now you are a bleep in my heart”. For me, those words and moments remain frozen in time till eternity and she remains always my one true love.
I love you Mommy, you are that bleep forever in my heart.
(Allow me to share the following tune from Chick Corea and Return To Forever called “Crystal Silence”, which like Mariel’s love is both wordless and sublime.)
